Relationships

Philippians 2:5-8 "In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;  rather, he made himself nothing  by taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to death— even death on a cross!"... i've been thinking about relationships lately, Friendships, Guy-Girl, Family... and i found this verse. Can i first just say i'll never measure up to that ... ever! but it's really something to think about. There're people for whom i would die without a second thought. Because i know where i'm going without a doubt... and i can't wait to get there, if god wanted me home tomorrow i'd go, but if he wants me here 'til a ripe old age, i'm cool with that too. but on the point of serving others... especialy if i have a higher "rank" (if i can call it that) or i know better... that's not something i'm the best at. There're people in my life that i would love to just shake, yell at, and knock some sense into, get them to see things in a better light. but i can't. it would be so incredibly against everything the bible tells us (2 Tim 4:2 "Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke and encourage—with great patience and careful instruction. ) patience, encourage, careful instruction, hard stuff. there are other people who i don't want to respect or serve at all... because they don't deserve it at all. These are REALLY hard people for me to deal with, because i know i'm supposed to serve them, and sometimes i know exactly how they need serving, but i Just Don't Want To do it. Only god can help me with that... and practice. Jesus loved, served, and died for people he KNEW were going to literally spit on , and curse him. Like i said, i'll NEVER measure up to that. I find it really hard to respect, and serve the people in my family sometimes. i'm forced to be around them day in and day out. i often completely loose all reasons for serving them... i mean they're my family, i'm the baby, they're supposed to serve me right? wrong. something i struggle with often. In Guy-Girl relationships/Marriage... neither of which i've yet had, so i'm not speaking from experience. But i've seen much of the opposite of what the bible says put into practice. I don't want any of what i've witnessed before. I have certain couples in mind that are kind of my "Model"  couples, because they're not perfect, they understand that, and they love each other, and work through their differences with respect for one another, and each others feelings. I want that in my future. A family that's not perfect, but yearns after Christ's example. The people in my "Friends list" are people that are real, and that i can relate to, and i love them for their weaknesses. like i said before i would die for many of them if a situation arose that called for it. though even with these people, the ones that I get to chose to keep in my life, there are many times that i want to bite my tongue, because i just said something rude, or stupid, or insensitive. and there are times that i really don't want to serve them. most of the time i would love nothing more than to love on my friends, and serve them. but sometimes they, or my own attitude make it super hard.   i have to ask god every day to help me keep my mouth in check. Jesus is the only example to strive for... go.